It's Amazing!

I tell you, I knew that  being a mom would be amazing, but I had no idea that it would be this wonderful! I LOVE being a mom. No matter how bad of a day I have at work, or what type of a mood I am in, I go home and say hey to Wesley and he smiles this incredible smile and it makes everything better. It melts my heart. I love watching him everyday and see how every single day he learns something new. He is a sponge that absorbs everything. He is so innocent and pure and sometimes I wish that I could have some of that innocence. We get so wraped up in our day to day lives that we forget to just sit back and enjoy the little things. Our lives are ran by watches and clocks and meetings, and "oh I have to do this errand and go that place", that life just passes us by. I think the thing that I am struggling with the most with being a mother is that since I am working, I don't want to miss the little things with Wesley. I hate that for 8 hours of the day I am not with him. I want to see everything that he does and soak in every minute! I feel like sometimes I'm missing out on his life because I am not with him. I wonder- does he know that I am his mom? Am I spending enough time with him when I get home? I know that these all sound silly, but it's hard juggling work and mommyhood. I know that tons of women work and raise kids, but I desire to be 100 percent involved in his life. I mean it's up to me and David to raise him the right way. So, as I embark on this journey, I LOVE every minute of it, but I also am afraid to at times. But....I know that when I get off of work today my little boy is going to greet me with a HUGE smile and all my worries will go away!